60中 霸道怪威吓小畜生 水桶腰陪酒胃出血（1 / 2）

<h3>60中 霸道怪威吓小畜生 水桶腰陪酒胃出血（第1页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiA56eS6K6w5L2P44CQeGlhb3lhbndlbnh1ZeOAkeeyvuW9qeaXoOW8ueeql+WFjei0ue+8geWbm+WNgeWygeeahOaIkOWKn+aYr+S4jeWGjeWSjOWFrOWphuWQteaetu+8jOaYr+iAgeWFrOS4jeS8muaJvuS4ie+8jOaYr+avj+W5tOaUtuaUr+Wkp+S9k+W5s+ihoe+8jOaYr+WtqeWBpeW6t+WwkeiKsemSseWtpuS5oOWlve+8jOaYr+S4ieaKmOeahOS7t+mSseS5sOWIsOWOn+S7t+eahOS4nOilv++8jOaYr+S4jeeUqOWQg+edgOeil+mHjOeahOaDpuiusOmUhemHjOeahOKApuKApuWbm+WNgeWygeeahOS6uuS4jeS8muWGjeaKiuW5suS6i+S4muOAgeiwiOS/oeS7sOOAgeiBiuaipuaDs+aMguWcqOWYtOi+ueOAgjwvcD4='));</script>

一秒记住【xiaoyanwenxue】精彩无弹窗免费！四十岁的成功是不再和公婆吵架，是老公不会找三，是每年收支大体平衡，是孩健康少花钱学习好，是三折的价钱买到原价的东西，是不用吃着碗里的惦记锅里的……四十岁的人不会再把干事业、谈信仰、聊梦想挂在嘴边。

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在她们销售、业务这行当里，马桂英什么鬼魅魍魉没见过，能保持正常和差不多，已然是成功了；能跟上悬浮的房价和令人翻脸的物价，一定算得上成功；两口子没病没灾地将一个家庭从这一代推送到下一代，这就是成功了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Zub5Y2B5bKB55qE5oiQ5Yqf5piO5piO5qCH5YeG5b6I5L2O5b6I5L2O77yM5Y205b6I6Zq+5a6e546w44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

四十岁的成功明明标准很低很低，却很难实现。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

回忆刚入行时的艰辛和屈辱，马桂英一言难尽。能有今这光景，怕是她这辈子的极限了吧。一个饶人生舞台会有多大？平庸者的舞台拢共文竹叶那么丁点儿，甚至绝大多数人终其一生也找不到自己的舞台。马经理的舞台上整上演着各种算计的人、丑陋的事、奇葩的公司，时间久了竟习惯了。那磕磕绊绊的台子上，有人来演、有人在看，已经荣幸至极。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5piv5ZWK77yM5aW55rS75Yiw5LqG5Zub5Y2B5bKB77yM5Lq655Sf55qE5qC85bGA5Lmf5omN6L+Z5LmI5aSn44CC5aaC5q2k77yM5aW56L+Y5b6X5aW95aW957u05oqk57K+5b+D5L6b5YW777yM6Z2g552A5a6D5YW75a6257OK5Y+j77yM6Z2g552A5a6D5bqm5Yeh5L+X5Lq655Sf44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

是啊，她活到了四十岁，人生的格局也才这么大。如此，她还得好好维护精心供养，靠着它养家糊口，靠着它度凡俗人生。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiW6Ze05LuA5LmI5Lic6KW/6Laz5Y+v5oSJ5oKm5LiA5Liq5pa55pa56Z2i6Z2i5Z2H6LWw5LiL5Z2h6Lev55qE5Lit5bm05Lq677yf5ZKM6LCQ55qE54ix5oOF77yf5LyY56eA55qE5aW95a2p5a2Q77yf5LiA5biG6aOO6aG65pS25YWl56iz5a6a55qE5LqL5Lia77yf5ZCE56eN6LWE5rqQ5Y+v5Y+L5aW95Lqk5o2i55qE56S+5Lqk572R57uc4oCm4oCm6ams5qGC6Iux5LiN55+l6YGT6Zmk5LqG6YeR6ZKx6L+Y5pyJ5LuA5LmI6IO95oSJ5oKm5aW544CB5ouv5pWR5aW544CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

世间什么东西足可愉悦一个方方面面均走下坡路的中年人？和谐的爱情？优秀的好孩子？一帆风顺收入稳定的事业？各种资源可友好交换的社交网络……马桂英不知道除了金钱还有什么能愉悦她、拯救她。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5omA6LCT55qE5Lit5bm077yM5piv5ryr5ryr5LiA55Sf6LWw5a6M5LqG5LiA5Y2K5Ymp5LiL5LiA5Y2K77yM5YmN5LiA5Y2K6L+36Iyr44CB5aSx6JC977yM5ZCO5LiA5Y2K57un57ut6L+36Iyr44CB57un57ut5aSx6JC944CC5Zub5Y2B5bKB77yM5Yia5ben5Zyo6YKj5p2h5YiG55WM57q/5LiK44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

所谓的中年，是漫漫一生走完了一半剩下一半，前一半迷茫、失落，后一半继续迷茫、继续失落。四十岁，刚巧在那条分界线上。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5qGC6Iux5ou85bC95YWo5Yqb77yM5oC76KeJ6Lqr5LiK5L2/5LiN5Ye65Yqy5YS/44CC5q+P5qyh6Lq65LiL5p2l5ZG85ZC45pe277yM5ZCs552A6Ieq5bex5rKJ6YeN5Y+I57KX57yT55qE5ZaY5oGv77yM5LiN55Sx6IGU5oOz6LW35aW55amG77yI6ZmV6KW/5pa56KiA5Lit56ew5aW25aW25Li65amG77yJ5Li06LWw5YmN6YKj5Yeg5bm055qE5YWJ5pmv44CC6L+Z5LiN5piv6ICB5bm05Lq65omN5pyJ55qE5ZG85ZC45ZCX77yf5bm06L276aW25ZG85ZC455qG5piv6L2755uI55qE77yM5Y+v5aW56L+Y5rKh6L+H5Zub5Y2B5bKB55Sf5pel5bey57uP5byA5aeL5ZG85ZC45bim5ZaY44CB5Yqb5LiN5LuO5b+D5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

桂英拼尽全力，总觉身上使不出劲儿。每次躺下来呼吸时，听着自己沉重又粗缓的喘息，不由联想起她婆（陕西方言中称奶奶为婆）临走前那几年的光景。这不是老年人才有的呼吸吗？年轻饶呼吸皆是轻盈的，可她还没过四十岁生日已经开始呼吸带喘、力不从心了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5pyA6L+R5piO5pi+5YaF5YiG5rOM5aSx6LCD6IS45LiK6LW355aZ55ip77yM6IWL5LiL54uQ6Iet5Y+I5Lil6YeN5LqG77yM5pW06IOh5ZCD5rW35aGe5a+86Ie05o6S5Lya5aW95b6I5aSa77yM552h5LiA6KeJ5LmL5ZCO77yM5aW55Y+I5piv6YKj5Liq5ruh6KGA5aSN5rS755qE5aWz6JmO5bCG5LqG44CC5Y+v5piv5oyh5Zyo5LiA5aSc5aW955yg5LmL6Ze055qE77yM5aW95YOP5pyJ5b6I5aSa5b6I5aSa55qE5bel5L2c44CB5b6I5aSa5b6I5aSa55qE5oSB5oCd44CB5b6I5aSa5b6I5aSa55qE54Sm54G85peg5Yqb4oCm4oCmPC9wPg=='));</script>

最近明显内分泌失调脸上起疙瘩，腋下狐臭又严重了，整胡吃海塞导致排会好很多，睡一觉之后，她又是那个满血复活的女虎将了。可是挡在一夜好眠之间的，好像有很多很多的工作、很多很多的愁思、很多很多的焦灼无力……<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y+I5LiA5qC554Of5oq95a6M5LqG77yM5aW55Y+I5Y+W5Ye65paw55qE5LiA5pSv54Of44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

又一根烟抽完了，她又取出新的一支烟。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

粉红的烟把，雪白纤细的烟身，芬芳独特的烟气……这本是她为女客户准备的名牌香烟。几年前她遇到一位烟不离手的女老总，和她考察工厂时她特意备了上好的女士烟，结果女老总没抽，倒是自己这些年抽了起来。一年五七包，有时候几包烟常在某一年的某一月里一气抽完。怕家里人知道，桂英会在车里散很久的烟味儿，即使致远闻到了，也以为是客户身上的烟味串过来的。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aSq57Sv5LqG77yB6L+Z5Yeg5bm077yM5qGC6Iux5YOP5LiA5Liq5rC46L+c57y66KeJ55qE5a2p5a2Q5Ly855qE77yM5Y+v5oGo55qE5piv5rC46L+c5b6X5LiN5Yiw5YWF6Laz55qE5LyR5oGv44CC5YS/5pe26YKj56eN5b6I5rKJ5b6I5rKJ55qE552h55yg44CB552h6YaS5LmL5ZCO6Lqr6L275aaC54eV55qE5oSf6KeJ5YaN5Lmf5rKh5pyJ5LqG44CC6IOW5aSn5aaI5oq9552A5oq9552A5oKE54S25rWB5rOq77yM6aaZ54Of6KKr5rOq5rC05omT5rm/5LqG44CC5qGC6Iux54Gt5LqG54Of5aS05omU5LqG54Of5oqK77yM55So6L2m6YeM55qE5bm/5ZGK57q454uC5omH6Ieq5bex5Zi06YeM55qE54Of5ZGz5YS/44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

太累了！这几年，桂英像一个永远缺觉的孩子似的，可恨的是永远得不到充足的休息。儿时那种很沉很沉的睡眠、睡醒之后身轻如燕的感觉再也没有了。胖大妈抽着抽着悄然流泪，香烟被泪水打湿了。桂英灭了烟头扔了烟把，用车里的广告纸狂扇自己嘴里的烟味儿。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aS055qu5oC75piv57Sn57u3552A77yM5YOP6ISR6Zeo5LiK57y66KGA5LiA6Iis77yM5pW05Liq5Lq65rKh5pyJ5Yqe5rOV6IiS5bGV5oiW5a695p2+77yM5Ly85LmO5Y+q5pyJ5Zad6YWS6IO96K6p5aW55b6X5Yiw57yT6Kej44CC5q+P5q+P5LiA5Zad6YWS77yM5aW55L6/5LiN5YaN5piv5aW55LqG44CC6YWS5ZCO55qE6ams5qGC6Iux5YOP5piv6Ieq5bex55qEMjDljYfnuqfniYjvvIzku4DkuYjpg73mlaLku4DkuYjpg73mlaLogYrvvIzpgqPkuKrpqazmoYLoi7HosIjnrJHpo47nlJ/osYHlvpflh7rljrvvvIzpgqPkuKrpqazmoYLoi7HnlKjphZLlsIbnjrDlrp7lroznvo7pmpTnprvkuobjgII8L3A+'));</script>

头皮总是紧绷着，像脑门上缺血一般，整个人没有办法舒展或宽松，似乎只有喝酒能让她得到缓解。每每一喝酒，她便不再是她了。酒后的马桂英像是自己的20升级版，什么都敢什么都敢聊，那个马桂英谈笑风生豁得出去，那个马桂英用酒将现实完美隔离了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5omH54Of5ZGz5YS/55qE6IOz6IaK5omT5LiN5byA77yM5Zug5Li66IOz6IaK5aSq57KX5LqG77yM5Zug5Li66KGj5pyN5aSq57Sn5LqG44CC6ams5qGC6Iux5b6I5oOz5YOP5LiA5Liq55S35Lq65LiA5qC35oqK5YuS5Zyo6ISW5a2Q5LiK55qE6aKG5bim5a695p2+5a695p2+77yM5aW96K6p6Ieq5bex6IiS5pyN5LiA54K544CC5Y+v5piv77yM5aW55rKh5pyJ6aKG5bim77yM6ISW5a2Q5Y206KKr57Sn57Sn5YuS552A44CC5aW55ri05pyb5Lul5YmN55qE5a6J5a6B44CB5Lul5ZCO55qE576O5aW95ZKM6YGl6L+c55qE5qyi5qyj6IO95aSf5ouv5pWR546w5Zyo55qE6Ieq5bex44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

扇烟味儿的胳膊打不开，因为胳膊太粗了，因为衣服太紧了。马桂英很想像一个男人一样把勒在脖子上的领带宽松宽松，好让自己舒服一点。可是，她没有领带，脖子却被紧紧勒着。她渴望以前的安宁、以后的美好和遥远的欢欣能够拯救现在的自己。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6IOW5aWz6aW26ZW/55u45ZKM5oCn5qC857uZ5Lq66YCg5oiQ5LiA56eN5Yi75p2/5YGH6LGh77yM5aW95YOP5aW55piv5LiN6ZyA6KaB5YWz5oCA5ZKM5YWz5rOo55qE77yM5aW95YOP5aW554S25Zyw5by65aSn5Y+I6IGq5piO44CC5Y+v56yR55qE5piv5aW55bi457uZ6Ieq5bex6JCl6YCg6L+Z56eN5YGH6LGh77yM5Lul5Li66Ieq5bex5peg5omA5LiN6IO944CC5a6e6ZmF5LiK5ZGi77yM5aW555qE6ISG5byx5ZKM5peg6IO95Y+q5pyJ6Ieq5bex5riF5qWa44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

胖女饶长相和性格给人造成一种刻板假象，好像她是不需要关怀和关注的，好像她然地强大又聪明。可笑的是她常给自己营造这种假象，以为自己无所不能。实际上呢，她的脆弱和无能只有自己清楚。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

如果不是必要的工作需求，恐怕她在这个家里是欲求或吆喝最少的。她不需要太大的开支，也没有其它的爱好，更没什么特别着迷的饭菜或热烈追求的品牌。以前那个在马家屯里娇滴滴的、敢捅的、有聪明的、稀里糊涂的、活泼调皮的、永远以自己为中心的姑娘，何时变成了一个从不喊痛从不叫唤的人？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

她气儿子买鞋子——买大大的东西永远找她伸手要钱，她怨家里出现大大的经济危机永远是她在主动解决。注定吧，一旦她出现在两孩子面前，她一定是能干的妈妈；一旦她出现在何老师跟前，她当然是被传闻为能干的妻子。有时候连她自己也分不清她是真能干还是在撑着能干。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5qGC6Iux5LiN5LmQ5oSP5LiA5Liq5Lq654as77yM5aW55oCl6ZyA5LiA5Liq5oiY5Y+L77yM5ZOq5oCV5piv5LiN5oS/5Ye65Yqb5Ye66ZKx5Y205oS/5oSP5YiG5Lqr5aW555y85LiL5YWo55uY5Y2x5py66YeM5aSW54WO54as55qE5oiY5Y+L77yB5aW55biM5pyb5pyJ5Lq65ZKM5aW55LiA6LW35Yqq5Yqb77yM5biM5pyb5pyJ5Lq66IO95o6l6L+H5aW55omL6YeM55qE5o6l5Yqb5qOS5Li66L+Z5Liq5a625bqt57un57ut5pKR6LW36ISK5qKB77yM5Y+v5oOc44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

桂英不乐意一个人熬，她急需一个战友，哪怕是不愿出力出钱却愿意分享她眼下全盘危机里外煎熬的战友！她希望有人和她一起努力，希望有人能接过她手里的接力棒为这个家庭继续撑起脊梁，可惜。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5qGC6Iux5biM5pyb5pyJ5pu05a6P5aSn55qE5r2u5rWB6IO95aSf54m15byV5aW577yM6L+Z5qC36Ieq5bex5LiN6ZyA6KaB5oCd6ICD77yM5Y+q6KaB6Juu5bmy5Y2z5Y+v44CC5aaC5p6c5Lq65Lq65LiN5b+F5oCd6ICD5Y+q6ZyA6Juu5bmy77yM6YKj55Sf5rS76K+l5aSa566A5Y2V44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

桂英希望有更宏大的潮流能够牵引她，这样自己不需要思考，只要蛮干即可。如果人人不必思考只需蛮干，那生活该多简单。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuK55yf5piv5aSq5YCS6ZyJ5LqG77yM5LqL5LqL5LiN6aG644CC6KKr5p2O6Iqz566X6K6h6IOM5ZCO5o+S5LqG5LiA5YiA77yM6KKr5aW55Yeg5bKB55qEam9kbuaXoOaDheaJueivhOWlueayoeacieeuoeeQhuiDveWKm+S4jeiDveiDnOS7u+e7j+eQhuS4gOiBjO+8jOiiq+iuqOS6huS+v+WunOaLv+S6huWlveWkhOeahOWuouaIt+eZveeZveaKmOiFvuS4gOWcuuKApuKApuahqeahqeS7tuS7tu+8jOWHkei1t+adpeWQiOS8meaJk+WHu+edgOWlueOAgjwvcD4='));</script>

今真是太倒霉了，事事不顺。被李芳算计背后插了一刀，被她几岁的jodn无情批评她没有管理能力不能胜任经理一职，被讨了便宜拿了好处的客户白白折腾一场……桩桩件件，凑起来合伙打击着她。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW56KKr5Ye75Z6u5LqG44CC6L+Z5LiA5oiY5aW56JC96a2E5peg5aOw5Zyw6LSl5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

她被击垮了。这一战她落魄无声地败了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y2B5LiA54K56L+H5LqG77yM5qGC6Iux5pS25L2P5aeU5bGI5ZKM5b+D6YW477yM5YeG5aSH5YaN5pWj5pWj54Of5ZGz5YS/5Zue5a6244CC5LuO5Yiw5aSn77yM5aW55Y+v5Lul5Li65q+N5Lqy5ZOt44CB5Li65aSn5ZOl5LqM5ZOl5ZOt44CB5Li65YS/5a2Q5aWz5YS/5ZOt44CB5Li66Ie06L+c5oiW5amG5amG5ZOt77yM5L2G5Yeg5LmO5LuO5LiN5Li66Ieq5bex5ZOt44CC5rKh5pyJ5LuA5LmI5LqL5oOF5YC85b6X5aW55ZOt77yM5YC85b6X5aW55ZOt55qE5LqL5oOF5Zyo5rWB5rOq5LmL5YmN5bey57uP6KKr5aW55bmy5o6J5LqG44CC5aW55b6I5Z2a5by677yM5Z2a5by65Yiw6bq75pyo44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

十一点过了，桂英收住委屈和心酸，准备再散散烟味儿回家。从到大，她可以为母亲哭、为大哥二哥哭、为儿子女儿哭、为致远或婆婆哭，但几乎从不为自己哭。没有什么事情值得她哭，值得她哭的事情在流泪之前已经被她干掉了。她很坚强，坚强到麻木。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

“我能控制我的压力，我能掌控我的生活，我的工作我全权做主……去他妈的形同摆设的人事部，去他妈的朝脚蹬子（钱总jodn）她坏话的李芳，去他妈的整针对她的脚蹬子，去他妈的她没能力的蔫酸海龟，去他妈的明争暗斗一盘散沙的安科展，去他妈的强迫她喝酒暗示她送礼的无良客户，去他妈的好了签合同见面了给老娘反悔的破公司，去他妈的拿了好处得了便宜还高高在上不签合同的狗屁客户……”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiR6IO95o6n5Yi25oiR55qE5Y6L5Yqb77yM5oiR6IO95o6M5o6n5oiR55qE55Sf5rS777yM5oiR55qE5bel5L2c5oiR5YWo5p2D5YGa5Li777yM5oiR5pyJ6IO95Yqb5ou/5LiL5ou/5LiN5LiL55qE5a6i5oi377yM5Lu75L2V5pe25YCZ5oiR6IO95b275bqV5o6M5o6n5oiR55qE5oOF57uq4oCm4oCm4oCd6ams5qGC6Iux5Yay552A6L2m5aSW55qE5rC05rOl5p+x5a2Q77yM5Zi06YeM5b+15b+15pyJ6K+N44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“我能控制我的压力，我能掌控我的生活，我的工作我全权做主，我有能力拿下拿不下的客户，任何时候我能彻底掌控我的情绪……”马桂英冲着车外的水泥柱子，嘴里念念有词。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiA5aSn5q6157uT5p2f5LqG77yM5pOm5LqG5rOq77yM5qGC6Iux57un57ut5aaC5ber5amG5LiA6Iis4oCU4oCU5Lik55y857Sn6Zet44CB5Y+z5omL5pS+5Zyo6IO45Y+j44CB5Zi06YeM5oyv5oyv5pyJ6K+N4oCc5oiR6IO95o6n5Yi25oiR55qE5Y6L5Yqb77yM5oiR6IO95o6M5o6n5oiR55qE55Sf5rS777yM5oiR55qE5bel5L2c5oiR5YWo5p2D5YGa5Li777yM5oiR5Y+v5Lul6ZqP5pe257uI57uT6ISG5byx5LiO5aSx5o6n77yM5YGa5LuA5LmI5bel5L2c5oyj5aSa5bCR6ZKx5oiR6Ieq5bex5LqG566X77yM5oiR5LiN5Lya6K6p5aSx6LSl44CB5re35Lmx44CB6LSf6Z2i5oOF57uq6JmQ5b6F6Ieq5bex4oCm4oCm4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

一大段结束了，擦了泪，桂英继续如巫婆一般——两眼紧闭、右手放在胸口、嘴里振振有词“我能控制我的压力，我能掌控我的生活，我的工作我全权做主，我可以随时终结脆弱与失控，做什么工作挣多少钱我自己了算，我不会让失败、混乱、负面情绪虐待自己……”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y+I5p2l5LqG4oCU4oCU6ams5rCP5rSX6ISR5rOV44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

又来了——马氏洗脑法。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5q+P5q+P6Zm35YWl57ud5pyb5raI5p6B5pe277yM6ams5qGC6Iux5oC755So6L+Z5qC355qE5rSX6ISR5rOV5Li66Ieq5bex5byA6Kej77yM55So5LmF5LqG5b+D55CG5pqX56S66L+Z5LiA5oub5Ly85LmO5oy6566h55So55qE44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

每每陷入绝望消极时，马桂英总用这样的洗脑法为自己开解，用久了心理暗示这一招似乎挺管用的。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiN55+l5YOP56We57uP55eF5LiA5qC35Zyo6L2m6YeM6buY6buY5b+15LqG5aSa5bCR6YGN77yM6KeJ6Ieq5bex5b+D5oOF5bmz56iz5LqG77yM5qGC6Iux5byA6Zeo5LiL5LqG6L2m44CC6Lip552A56Oo56C06ISa55qE6auY6Lef6Z6L77yM5oy6552A5a696ZiU55qE5rOw5bGx6IWw77yM5b+N552A6IW55YaF55qE6Iet6YW45rC077yM5YOP55i45a2Q5LiA5qC344CB5aaC5aWz5aaW5LiA6Iis6LWw6L+b576a5qKv6YeM77yM5Zyo55S15qKv6YeM5o2j6byT5o2j6byT6Ieq5bex56iA55aP6JOs5Lmx55qE5aS05Y+R77yM5Zue5a625LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

不知像神经病一样在车里默默念了多少遍，觉自己心情平稳了，桂英开门下了车。踩着磨破脚的高跟鞋，挺着宽阔的泰山腰，忍着腹内的臭酸水，像瘸子一样、如女妖一般走进羚梯里，在电梯里捣鼓捣鼓自己稀疏蓬乱的头发，回家了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

这一晚，老马等得心焦无比，各种法子齐想了，只盼有个人回来商量商量，毕竟他很少跟大城市的人交往，毕竟老头真不知如何跟幼儿园老师打交道。十点半仔仔回来了，一回家先洗澡去了。没多久致远也回来了，换了鞋先收拾昨桂英晾晒的还未叠的衣服、床单被罩，好不容易见他消停了，老马找他去谈孩子的事情时，谁成想致远已经在他们房间的卫生间里洗澡了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y2B5LiA54K55Y2K77yM57uI5LqO77yM5aiD5aW55aaI5qGC6Iux5omT552A5ZOI5qyg44CB5pGH5pGH5pGG5pGG44CB5LiA6Lqr5oCq5ZGz5YS/5Zyw5Zue5p2l5LqG44CC6ICB6ams5omT552A5Zad5rC055qE5ZCN5LmJ6L+R6Led56a75ZKM5aW55pCt6K6q77yM6KeB5aW55LiA6Lqr6KS255qx5rGX5rm/44CB5Y+M55y85rC06IK/5LmM6buR44CB5LiA6IS45oOo55m96Jma5byx77yM6LWw6Lev5rKh5LiA5Lid5LiA5q+r55qE5Yqy5YS/77yM5LiA6L+b6Zeo5aOw5ZaK552A5aS055a85aS05pmV4oCm4oCm6L+Z6Iis5YWJ5pmv77yM6ICB6ams5Yiw5Zi06L6555qE6K+45aSa6K+d5YWo5ZK95LqG5LiL5Y6744CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

十一点半，终于，娃她妈桂英打着哈欠、摇摇摆摆、一身怪味儿地回来了。老马打着喝水的名义近距离和她搭讪，见她一身褶皱汗湿、双眼水肿乌黑、一脸惨白虚弱，走路没一丝一毫的劲儿，一进门声喊着头疼头晕……这般光景，老马到嘴边的诸多话全咽了下去。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5pma5LiK5ZCE6Ieq552h5LiL5Lul5ZCO77yM6ICB6ams5b+D55a85qGC6Iux57Sv5b6X6YKj5qC35a2Q77yM5b+D6YeM5o+q5b6X552h5LiN552A44CC5bmy5LqG5LiA6L6I5a2Q5Yac5rS777yM5L2T5Yqb5LiK55qE5Yqz57Sv5LuW5Yik5b6X5Ye65p2l77yM5pa55omN5LuO5qGC6Iux6IS45LiK55yL5Yiw57K+56We5LiK55qE5p6B5bqm5Yqz57Sv77yM556F552A5pyJ54K555iG5Lq644CC6ICB6ams6LaK55a85oOc546w5Zyo55qE5ry+5ry+77yM6LaK5o+q5b+D5LuW55qE6Iux6Iux44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

晚上各自睡下以后，老马心疼桂英累得那样子，心里揪得睡不着。干了一辈子农活，体力上的劳累他判得出来，方才从桂英脸上看到精神上的极度劳累，瞅着有点瘆人。老马越疼惜现在的漾漾，越揪心他的英英。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Zue5a625pe25LiA6Lev5LiK6aKR6aKR5omT5ZOI5qyg77yM5q2k5Yi75rKh5Y245aaG5rKh5o2i6KGj5Zyw6Lq65LiL5ZCO77yM5qGC6Iux5Y+I552h5LiN552A5LqG44CC5aS055a85b6X5Y+q6KeJ5Y+R5pyo77yM5aW55LiN5pWi5aSn5Yqo5L2c5Yqo5by577yM5LiA6L655ZCs552A6Ie06L+c55qE5ZG85Zmc5aOw77yM5LiA6L655aaC5q275py65LiA5qC36YeN5aSN5oOz552A5LuK55m95bel5L2c5LiK55qE56OV56OV57uK57uK44CB5Y2R6Lqs5bGI6Iad77yM5LiN55+l5YeM5pmo5Yeg54K55omN552h552A44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

回家时一路上频频打哈欠，此刻没卸妆没换衣地躺下后，桂英又睡不着了。头疼得只觉发木，她不敢大动作动弹，一边听着致远的呼噜声，一边如死机一样重复想着今白工作上的磕磕绊绊、卑躬屈膝，不知凌晨几点才睡着。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y2B5pyI5Y2B5LqU77yM5ZGo5LqM5LiA5pep77yM6ICB6ams6L+Y5rKh5p2l5b6X5Y+K6Lef5qGC6Iux5q2j5LqL5YS/77yM5Lq65a625Y+I6LWw5LqG44CC55yL5p2l5aiD5YS/6KKr5qy66LSf6L+Z5Lu25LqL77yM5Y+q6IO955Sx5LuW6L+Z5Liq6ICB5aSW5YWs5YWo5p2D5aSE55CG5LqG44CC5pep5LiK5LiA55Wq55uY566X77yM5omT5a6a5Li75oSP5Lul5ZCO77yM6ICB6ams6YCB5a2p5a2Q5LiK5a2m44CC5LiD54K55Y2K5ry+5ry+6L+b5bm85YS/5Zut5Lul5ZCO77yM6ICB6ams5pWF5oSP55WZ5Lqb5oqK5p+E77yM5YWI5Y676ZmE6L+R5b+r6YCf5ZCD5LqG5Liq5pep6aSQ77yM6ICM5ZCO5Y+I5ouQ5Zue5bm85YS/5Zut44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

十月十五，周二一早，老马还没来得及跟桂英正事儿，人家又走了。看来娃儿被欺负这件事，只能由他这个老外公全权处理了。早上一番盘算，打定主意以后，老马送孩子上学。七点半漾漾进幼儿园以后，老马故意留些把柄，先去附近快速吃了个早餐，而后又拐回幼儿园。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g5bmy5ZWl5ZGi77yf4oCd6Zeo5Y2r55qE6ICB5aS06Zeu44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你干啥呢？”门卫的老头问。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiR5aiD55qE6KGj5pyN5ZKM5rC05p2v5b+Y5bim5LqG77yM5a2p5a2Q5LiN5Zad5rC05LiN5oiQ5ZWK77yB4oCd6ICB6ams5Lik5omL5pGK552A5rC05p2v5ZKM5o+Q5YmN6JeP5Zyo5YWc6YeM55qE5aSW5aWX77yM6IS45LiK546w5Ye654Sm5oCl5YWz5YiH5LmL5oCB44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“我娃的衣服和水杯忘带了，孩子不喝水不成啊！”老马两手摊着水杯和提前藏在兜里的外套，脸上现出焦急关切之态。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5Y675ZCn5Y675ZCn77yB4oCd56m/5Yi25pyN55qE6Zeo5Y2r5pGG5pGG5omL77yM56S65oSP6ICB6ams6L+b5Y6744CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“去吧去吧！”穿制服的门卫摆摆手，示意老马进去。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5peg5pWw5qyh55uu6YCB5ry+5ry+6L+b5bm85YS/5Zut77yM5pep5pG46YCP5LqG5a2p5LiK6K++55qE6Zeo5ZKM56qX44CC5q2k5Yi75oyJ54Wn5LuW5Lus5bm85YS/5Zut55qE5a6J5o6S77yM5a2p5q2j5piv5ZCD6L+H5pep6aWt546p6ICN55qE5pe26Ze044CC6ICB6ams5o6Q552A54K55YS/55u05aWU5LqM5qW855qE5Lit54+t56ys5LqM6Ze077yM5Yiw5LqG5oi/6Ze06KeB5LiA576k56KO5aiD5aiD6Lef6JqC6JqB5Ly855qE5pWj5Zyo5ZCE5aSE5LiJ5LiJ5Lik5Lik5Zyw546p6ICN44CC6ICB6ams5Zyo5YW25Lit5LiA55y85a+75Yiw5LqG5ry+5ry+77yM5Yay5aW55ZaK6YGT4oCc5a6d5YS/77yM5L2g5Lic6KW/77yB4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

无数次目送漾漾进幼儿园，早摸透了孩上课的门和窗。此刻按照他们幼儿园的安排，孩正是吃过早饭玩耍的时间。老马掐着点儿直奔二楼的中班第二间，到了房间见一群碎娃娃跟蚂蚁似的散在各处三三两两地玩耍。老马在其中一眼寻到了漾漾，冲她喊道“宝儿，你东西！”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5rSq5Lqu5Yir6Ie055qE5ZeT6Z+z556s6Ze05byV6LW35LqG5omA5pyJ5Zub5bKB5a6d5a6d55qE5rOo5oSP5Yqb44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

洪亮别致的嗓音瞬间引起了所有四岁宝宝的注意力。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5ry+5ry+5Zyo5LyX6aW25rOo55uu5LiL77yM5rK/552A5aKZ57uV6L+c6Lev5omt5omt5o2P5o2P5Zyw5o6l6L+H5Lic6KW/77yM6ICM5ZCO5Lik55y85Y+R5ZGG5Y+R5oSj44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

漾漾在众饶注目下，沿着墙绕远路扭扭捏捏地接过东西，而后两眼发呆发愣。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g5Lus54+t5paw5p2l55qE44CB5Lya6Lez6Iie55qE5pyL5Y+L5piv6LCB5ZGA77yf4oCd6ICB6aKG5a+85byT552A6IWw56yR55yv55yv5Zyw6K+i6Zeu5LiA5LyX5a2p5a2Q44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你们班新来的、会跳舞的朋友是谁呀？”老领导弓着腰笑眯眯地询问一众孩子。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiJ5Liq5aeR5aiY5bCG5omL5LiA6b2Q5oyH5ZCR5LqG5pWZ5a6k6KW/56qX5LiL55qE5LiA5Liq55S355Sf4oCU4oCU5q2j57qi6Imy5aSW5aWX44CB55m96Imy6L+Q5Yqo6Z6L44CB6buE6Imy6bit6IiM5bi944CC6ICB6ams5pyd6YKj5a2p5a2Q6LWw5Y6777yM5oyH552A5LuW5oqs5LqG5oqs5LiL5be06Zeu4oCc5L2g5piv5paw5p2l55qE77yf4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

三个姑娘将手一齐指向了教室西窗下的一个男生——正红色外套、白色运动鞋、黄色鸭舌帽。老马朝那孩子走去，指着他抬了抬下巴问“你是新来的？”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiA6IS455m955m95aup5aup55qE5pa55ZCv5rab5q2j6Lmy5Zyo5Zyw5LiK5Luw5pyb6ICB5aS077yM6KeB5aSn5Lq66Zeu6K+d57yT57yT56uZ6LW35p2l77yM54K55aS06YGT5piv44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

一脸白白嫩嫩的方启涛正蹲在地上仰望老头，见大人问话缓缓站起来，点头道是。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g6Lef5oiR5aiD4oCU4oCU5ry+5ry+4oCU4oCU5Z2Q5Zyo5LiA5Z2X5YS/77yM5piv5LiN77yf4oCd6ICB6ams5oyH5LqG5oyH5LiA57Gz5aSW5Zif5Zi054qv5YK755qE5ry+5ry+44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你跟我娃——漾漾——坐在一块儿，是不？”老马指了指一米外嘟嘴犯傻的漾漾。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5pa55ZCv5rab556f5LqG55y85ry+5ry+77yM5pyb552A6a2B5qKn5aaC5bGx55qE6ICB5aS077yM5Y+I54K56Zu25aS044CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

方启涛瞟了眼漾漾，望着魁梧如山的老头，又点零头。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ICB6ams6KeB5LuW54K55aS077yM5b+D6YeM566X5a6a5LqG77yM5LqO5piv5LiA5pS56K+t5oCB77yM5aSn5aOw5LiA5ZG14oCc5ry+5ry+6Lqr5LiK55qE5Lyk77yM5piv5LiN5piv5L2g5omT55qE77yf4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>